decided ta post up sum recent fotos..been lazy ah. well screwed up my maths paper tdy. its lyk a sure fail thg. think i shdnt go fer soci. i knw nuts abt soci. n my maths paper was so screwed i think the marker will hv nthg ta mark! oh god!! -sigh- hv ta rli buck up!! dear promised ta discipline me haha..whn was the last time i took an exam?? it was more than a yr ago?? im still not in the freakg mood ta be stuck on my chair fer hrs ta study!! -growl- think the rest will do well ehz..they seemed confident. only me. haha

went twn w dear..lunch at nooch. nthg much. but love spendg time w dear. too bad i cant go KL w them on the 11th..wld love ta fer netwkg sake. but jamie will be baq..long awaited trip home. i muz spend time w her. i want to. sorrie dear...i wld rli luv ta go..but dnt think i can. hope thgs go well fer u n ken. *hugg*

its chinese vdae tdy. reunion dinner tonight..loved ones.

**i miss those times.**

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEARIE!! *iloveu*

I see the clouds rolling in and how it looks like rain
And it is always me fightg for the welcome change
When it rains it pours in this heart of mine
So, I take the storms I feel,to her, each time.

But I know she has lived under her own pouring rain
Yet under her water her heart still doesn't change
She can walk away from what hangs overhead
And, not in her storm, are words left unsaid.

Not in her storm have I ever felt alone
Her storm ends, so I, may find my way home
It's for me that she pushes away her own rain
So, that I may find comfort in calling her name.

She lives in this world for the sake of another's heart
God, how she eases the miles when my world falls apart
And she never wanders when my world falls through
Not ever in her storm would she do this to me.

She has wings that I know not only I can see
Cause only an angel could find strength to carry me
It's the way that the eyes can surely view
How her heart's written so clearly in what an angel can do.

Not in her storm is her work ever done
And even in her storm she hands me the sun
When her world is dark - I always have light
And now how I hold the new color of night.

She takes then she gives to an unhappy face
So that many can find an awesome place
I have been able to love her more every day
And with her beside me,the clouds roll away.

Not in any storm that I will ever live beneath
Could ever change what I hold here inside of me
Not in any of her storms have I lost my angels touch
To that angel, i love u so much.

**ta my darlingg shaBESTIE** ur rli a sweetheart!! i can depend on u alws..thks fer wateva u did ydae!! i owe u one dear. ur the sweetest!! loveuloveuLOVEYOU!!! *mmuaaaaaa*

*ta yunxie sweetie* ur msg touched me..askg how my dad's doing. u gave me the assurance tt u care..whn the rest dnt. i miss u babe. he's fine alr..recuperating at hm. doing fine. i hope uve been well...iloveu ta bits!!!! u brightened up my dae w ur gesture n concern. im not alone cos of dearies lyk u. *muaaaaahhhhaaaa*

nobody knws wat kinda internal struggle im gg thru. m i pms-ing or wat?? sheesh..im hurt. shd i feel this way?? m i thinkg too much?? i nd a break. a break frm all those involved. its the world whole actually. wth is wrg w me?? i wna scream out LOUD!! fer one sec..pls show me or tell me tt im actually being appreciated?? im tired of giving. dead tired. nobody cares. seriously no one.

"close door" policy starts frm tdy. nd time ta find myself agn. y muz it alws be the one whom u thot u love e most turn out ta be not worthy of ur love at all?? aft so many yrs. ---shattered--- i feel alone. being thrown in the cold facing evthg alone. i knw im not but y do i alws hv this feelg tt i am...++emotional++violence++

*happie bday jaq darlingg!!!!!*
happie bday ta u
happie bday ta u
happie bday ta jaqie dearie
happie bday ta u!!!!-cheers-

thks dearie fer simply being ur real self n a grt fwen ta me. constantly being der ta check out on me. iloveudear!! *big bday huggz* may uve a grt grt yr ahead. *muaaaa*

mtg lyn swts fer dinner. catchg up time. cant wait fer tt ger ta step into SIM!!